General Streaming Diary June 2013 Black Water Snake

Conditions:

Warm but neither hot or cold
It's the mad season where weiryness kicks in when depth is lost a little during busy times working for a Garden Centre. The back weakens in places and motivation lost, so it's time to explore the inner self when this comes about. Also, it's good to put a freeze to over exersion and maybe not do any thing but watch something pleasant on TV.
I've been drawn to the hidden aspects of life since I can remember, and found a lot of interest in researching on nearly any subject, or simply jotting down my findings. Exploring through detail, rather than just moving body has got me to believe 'You don't have to travel by body to explore new things'. There are times you really do need to get out, like booked holidays etc. I doesn't always mean you'll be happy or comfortable - far from it, but a step into the unexpected makes life worth living that bit more.
I do lack in assersion but make up for ease of doing things and can give that to others too, like being helpful here and there. I do have a helping bane sector in the knowledge department, as I can only realistically remember recent things, and disregard unknowns to the point why bother. It's part and parcel to get negative feedback when you don't exactly known something and someone runs you down with your uncertainty. Better do just say, I don't really know, but I always feel helpless and unwise growing to the point of worry and panic, maybe mentally sick under the pressure of the asker on a time budget.
Yes, negativity is like a sponge that's collects very easily, but it's like it turns to grease after a long while so clean it requires a bit more effort than usual. On the rebound, having friendly, kind people around keeps the negative build up in check thus a team/social barrier is created to repel the bad stuff from demoralising your goodness.
So it means there are the neutrals - content or not looking for trouble, the hoovers - and difficulty or weakness is bullied (they can be quite intelligent and throw you of if they think they are at a knowing advantage, and start the bullying tactics, like unearned discounts and ridiculous questions designed to weaken your ability to judge correctly), and finally the blessed light bulbs, who seem to shine, almost regardless of weather, and provide food to eat for the quiet types who seem to be always hungry.
We are talking about the external boomers, the ones who are big and warm in energy. They can be so needed when it gets a bit too quiet, for balance is the key to sustaining a good harmony.